A Daily Musings Edit

The post, "The Password to a Forbidden Crush" has been deleted. I rarely censor myself online, but, I realized the repercussions from that blog could undermine the kinds of relations I have with certain people. I would rather keep the "Crush", "forbidden", and hence, a secret. I thought I had the strength to make it public, but, alas, I'm not ready. And they're not ready.

Requests to see the post itself will be honored on an individual basis. I'll make that concession.

EDIT:

My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said "well anyway..."
Just dying for a subject change

Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Momma said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon

We bit our lips, she looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the
salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just
slipped out and what went wrong

Oh, the way she feels
about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Momma said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess he better find one

I'm never speaking up again, it only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery, than she desert me

Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now



...One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it's all because of this desire
I just wanna be liked, I just wanna be funny
Looks like the jokes on me
So call me "Captain Backfire"

Oh, another social casualty
Score one for me
How could I forget?
Momma said "think before speaking"
No filter in my head
Oh, what's a boy to do
I guess I better find one

I'm never speaking up again. It only hurts me
I'd rather be a mystery, than she desert me

Oh I'm never speaking up again
Starting now